Feeling Blue

on Friday, February 16, 2007

Very often, after or even during some holiday or festival season, I get the blues. In the midst of the merry making, I often get retrospective. However, this Valentine's Day was exceptionally bad for real.

Although, my wife and I do not go in to the hype that is Valentine's Day but we would still like to spend it together. Unfortunately, this year, my wife had to work till past midnight and we were unable to spend the day together. And then, ....there was trouble at work.

I supervise about 30 people at work. I try to be a good boss. It's something that I put a lot of effort into and take seriously. My understanding of being a good boss, has to do with leading by example, treating everyone with mutual respect, refering to them as colleagues and not subordinates, and mentoring the weaker ones as well as fighting for their welfare. So, the winds disappeared from my sails when I discovered on Valentine's day that one of them had written a poison pen letter about me.

So I am feeling blue at the moment. I am in a blue phase and a blue place.....which is why I chose this stark blue picture above. Of course for me, the best thing to do when I have the blues is to take a long walk in the cold or in the rain and to come to a place like that shown in the picture. It helps me re-focus and realise that the world goes on. Occasional soul searching is good for the soul. It's like checking the compass during a sea-squall to see if the boat is still true to course and before long, fine weather and sunshine reappears.

(I stumbled on this picture and I do not know where it originally came from and so am unable to credit the photographer but I credit God for creating it.)


Janice Thomson said...

What an absolutely stunning picture LGS!...you won't be blue for long visiting places like that...besides you are a man of integrity and will not allow yourself to remain blue...if only people were as straight forward as your lovely little squirrels are- n'est ce pas?

Anonymous said...

Here's to hoping that "peanuts", either salted or crazy, are welcome at the ROTGS....and I dont mean for dinner. lol

I bet the author of your poisoned letter is a slacker that depends on others to make him/herself look better.

I am really enjoying your blog. :)

~crazy peanut~

Open Grove Claudia said...

I am sorry you are feeling blue, squirrely! I sometimes think that we have so many, many choices in modern life that we can't help feel like we are missing out on something. It creates a kind of bitterness that's easy to misplace.

squirrel said...

I really hope your day gets better, i'm sure this is just a mean spirited person trying to spread their misery around. God bless you Lone Grey Squirrel!

daysgoby said...

I hope you feel better soon, friend!

Josie said...

LGS, I cannot imagine anyone writing a poison pen letter about you. You know, people who do that are usually trying to draw attention away from themselves and make themselves look good by making someone else look bad. It's almost a perverse kind of jealousy. This too shall pass.

Hey, we'll all cheer you up!

Gorgeous photograph, by the way. I hope you feel better soon.


adelym said...

It may seem blue but.. underneath it all is beauty beyond your imagination like the picture.
May the good Lord give you strength in this season. May He be the one who will fight for you as you lay it before Him. See ya tomolo for dinner and cheery up. You are my wonderful uncle. :)

patterns of ink said...

Thanks for stopping by Patterns of Ink. I, too, am in administration and I try to treat my faculty and staff as you have mentioned you do. I have not had this happen to me from "within" (not for a long time anyway) but over the years, it's safe to say that I've made some unhappy--and on a few occasions I've felt the sting of a hurting person who wants to hurt in return. It's especially hard to handle when it is untrue, unfair, or recklessly malicious.

I told a group not long ago (after a sad but clear matter was settled) that "I'm way to tenderhearted for this job." But I think in the long run, tenderhearted is a good way to be in leadership even though brings with it melancholy days.

Look closely at your "blue" picture. I could be wrong, but it's actually a negative. Those trees are not frosted. They are "reversed" like in a photographic negative... and yet they've become something beautiful. Don't dwell on the poison pen. Think instead that you are a caring enough person to let it bother you. That vulnerability may feel negative sometimes, but like the picture, it's actually a beautiful thing.

Anonymous said...

I am sorry to hear you are having the blues. When I read your post I thought I wanted to reference a verse from my favorite book in the Bible, but then as I was going through some possibilities I came upon this chapter, read it again and loved it. I think it fits the moment. May God's comfort and peace surround you in this season of pain. Psalms 61

Lone Grey Squirrel said...

don't let them fool you. Squirrels can be quite the conmen, but I know what you mean. Sometimes I prefer to work with test-tubes than people cause there are no (unpleasant) surprises with test-tubes. Thanks for the supportive words.

crazy peanut,
You are most welcome and thanks for posting a comment. Hope to hear more from you. Nuts are always welcome at ROTLGS.

Choices, choices. Oerhaps too many choices and yet too often we don't make any choices at all but just go with the flow and press the default button. So times of introspection can be a good thing.

Thank you for the encouraging words. You are a testimony of grace under fire.

days go by,
Thanks and may your week improve as well.

thanks. when I started blogging, I didn't realise how wonderfully supportive the community can be. Did you like my nautical reference?

Thanks for those wonderful words. See you soon.

patterns of ink,
You have a wonderful blog with wonderful posts. I shall be back regularly.

I think the photo isn't a negative cause the clouds in a negative should not be white. But that is a small matter, your point is well taken. Thank you.

Thanks. Haven't had an opportunity yet but am anxious to read Psalm 61.

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR ALL YOUR WONDERFUL COMMENTS AND WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT. It feels like I am being dragged out of my blue place by incredibly cheerful wild horses.

patterns of ink said...

I see what you mean. The trees look like a photographic negative but the clouds are positive--interesting thought...think about that. Perhaps this photographer is saying more than first meets the eye in this strangely surreal scene. I like that picture!
Hey, I was scrolling down and read what you said about Vanilla ice cream. Me, too. I wrote about it back in August at:


Becky Wolfe said...

Ah Squirrel - think we all have days like those but its a bummer to have one on V-day and not be able to share it with your wife.

A scene like the one in the photo would definitely help cheer me from a blue place. I find its usually the best way to cheer myself when I'm blue and alone - go for a walk or a drive to somewhere beautiful.

When hubby's around, he always can find ways of making me smile or laugh and laughter is the best cure for the blues. Hope you found some beauty AND some funnies to bring you out of the blues.

East of Oregon said...

I'm so sorry you are feeling blue. Poisen pen letters are about the worst - I've encountered them too. Yukky yukky youkky.
Counter it with positiveness tho as best you can. Take care.

Tai said...

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling less than wonderful.

I hope the work situation gets resolved quickly, it's no fun having someone think ill of you.

Glad you're able to see the beauty in the world, despite the crap.

Dave said...

I am sorry you had such a down day. Though that photo looks stark, it is actually quite beautiful. Sometimes beauty and serenity will appear from doom and gloom... I hope it does for you.

Lone Grey Squirrel said...

Patterns of Ink,
We who are faithful to vanilla (actually I like French Vanilla for a change) know when we're on to a good thing and besides it's fun to frustrate those who sit and create those new-fangled ice-cream flavors. :)

Know what you mean. Unfortunately, I now live in a 4 million population metropolitian area and so its hard to get away to be alone with nature. You're so lucky to be able to do that and have ahusband that can make you laugh and cheeer you up. Wonderful, so pleased for you.

east of oregon,
Took your advice and tried countering the blues with something positive. That kinda led to my next post.

Thanks. The world is beautiful. It's people who mar it.

Appreciate what you wrote. I'll be okay. Just indulging myself a little.

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